Can she live up to what we all need her to be?
GOOD MOM has big shoes to fill, but she must take tiny, quiet steps.
Does she know what she's doing or can she fake it convincingly?
Does she enjoy it, or can she fake it convincingly?
When she dies, will we all say, "She was such a GOOD MOM?"
Did she give enough, shine enough, love enough, forgive enough, excuse enough, pamper and prop and rejoice in and move aside enough?
Can she tolerate enough?
Can she take a punch enough?
Endless punches?
All the punches?
Is she well-organized, calm, and selfless
Selfless Self-less Without Self
Can she find a way to be?
Must she relish the noise and the drowning?
GOOD MOM doesn't feel like she's losing the fight.
She can doggy paddle in the deep end while dragging the boat.
Because drowning would be her fault, too.
Is she excellent at apologizing and not making a mess?
Does she understand that everything depends on her?
And she can't take the credit, nope,
and she can't expect help.
Nope, nope, nope.
If she has her own needs, she can see to them at midnight.
If she has her own dreams, she better have followed them before spreading her legs.
If she opts out, she's a monster, if she stays, she'd better fucking be GOOD MOM.
Day in and out, leaving the house= selfish, staying= lazy AND selfish.
She'll have to find a way, a way to stay, a way to go, a way to be both person and GOOD MOM.
Or maybe she just lets the person go.
Remembers her in pictures and vague memories.
Puts her hands around her throat and snuffs her out completely.
Because people need things, want things, mess up, and start over.
People are never enough.
It's a good thing she's not a person anymore and that
All that remains is GOOD MOM.