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So, I've been sleeping on this show for a while. Watched the pilot when it came out in 2018 and it involved a suicide and near-suicide, and even though it starred my faves (James Roday Rodriguez, Shawn Spencer from "Psych" and Romany Malco, Jay in "Forty Year-Old Virgin") , I just never went back until recently. So now that I'm here and almost caught up to present (there are 4 seasons so far), here's my review: It's fucking great. It's a super dramatic night-time soap ope

My History of Mental Illness and Health. This was a while back. My hair isn't blue and white anymore, but that tight, defensive look on my face apparently is how I always look(?) because I've now had two separate therapists tell me I appear stricken when I'm feeling calm. Cool, cool. Resting stress face, we'll call it. I've been to several therapists over the decades. My first was when I was sixteen. I think I was sent because I was clearly in trouble- smoking, trying some

***Subscribers, thanks for reading! If you missed them, I've dropped a few excerpts of this new book along the way- it's a road trip book about adult sisters who are working out the pain of their past- when they were young, their third sister died from cancer, followed by their parents' divorce, their dad's descent into alcoholism, and their mom abandoning them. Now it's 30 years later, their dad has just died and the eldest, Tamara, who stayed behind to take care of him and

As I learn more about authenticity and vulnerability I realize how good I am at reflecting other people's sunshine back onto them and sitting with them in their darkness, but how rarely I ask for anyone to engage with me in my sunshine or shadow. I tend to serve and love and sacrifice so hard it leaves me dry, but it also leaves me feeling unknown and unloved. I'm learning that people don't always read minds(?) and don't always guess that I'm miserable when I say that I'm fin

I recently completed an 8 week writing seminar where they send you a daily prompt and set you up with a partner (that rotates weekly) and you write twelve minutes off the prompt and email it to each other and you and your partner give each other ONLY POSITIVE FEEDBACK. Before I started it, I thought it might annoy me because it's so imbalanced- I'm used to asking for negative feedback, critique that will help me improve my work...but with this daily exercise, I increased my n